Selfish...

Being the youngest child is not the best as far as i think.

It always ended up stuck in the middle of family problems.

And most of the time,

it seems as a problem.

Its suffocating.

hard to breath,

as when comparison is taken place.

Worst part became as a problem.

"I'm not a burden. I don't need You to do anything. I don't need your help."

These sentence always wanted to let out from my mouth.

But they never been spill out.

I'm tired....feels like tears coming down,

holding them in the eyes,

never letting them to come down or to get out,

its very hard to hold those tears.

Am i a burden to my family?

Sometimes i feel like i am a burden.

Things happen around me...

Peoples around me keep telling me things that are not nice to hear

about me and my families members.

HEY WHAT CAN I DO?

What you think i am?? Who do you think i am??

What you want me to do?

If you got a problem with it....why don't you tell those people yourself.

Its so tiring to be stuck in the middle.

And i don't want to care about it anymore.

I had enough.

(Tears coming down to my cheek.)