One more hour and thirty minutes
it would be 24hours since we last met.
I din receive her msgs too.
I'm not sure either whether what I've did should or not to be done.
I understand the feeling of her,
when she leave without saying goodbye
rushing beck into the house.
She must be sad,
i can feel the tears are going to come down from her eyes.
but i did not do anything else.
--At My Side--
My heart doesn't feel any better either.
What i've did,
I have my own reason.
Ever times b4 i see her get beck into the house.
I got a pain in my heart so bad...i wana cry at that very moment.
Instantly.......
But what could be done?
Nothing i can do.
Well i made the other choice and dropped her off earlier then usual.
things turns out to be worst then ever.
I never expect to have such respond.
Drove off beck to place i need to be.
In the car, alone......
A lot of things flashing into my head thinking things negatively.
"What if this never happen?"
"What if that never happen?"
"What if i didn't do this?"
"What if i didn't do that?"
Tears were coming down, trying to stop the tears,
i turn the air-con in the car aiming at my eyes.
My eyes were dried by it, by it hurts the other way round.
After i reached my destination, I stayed in the car for 30 minutes.
-Last message to her-
I reached home.. Nites..
After the message,
i head to bed with my slight fever and headache.
she never know that,
I didn't want her to know either.
To me there are things that i want to kept to myself,
not letting others to know.
I never wanted others to worried.
I've always think that my own burden should be carried me alone.
making others worried is not
what i want, never wanted.
I never expect you to know or understand.
All i need is your trust on what
decision I've made.
